Sunday, January 16, 2011

FAMILIES ARE FOREVER

My heart is full knowing...
 That THIS family is forever.
This knowledge that I have makes the separation period a little less painful.
(but only just a little)
Sunday's are one of the hardest days for me because I got to sit and hold you for all three meetings uninterrupted.  I miss having that time with you.  I miss wrapping you tight in your blanket so that just your little face peeked out and also your feet because you were growing longer than your blanket.  I miss resting your legs on daddy's lap so they wouldn't hang down.  I miss watching him rub your little feet and toes so that they would stay warm and circulated.  I miss having your siblings beg to hold you because you looked so cozy and warm all wrapped up and having to tell them no because I selfishly wanted you all to my own.  I miss the occasional beeping your vent would do during Sacrament meeting and watching everyone turn to see where it was coming from.  I secretly think you were showing a little of your rebellious side.  I miss dressing you up in your handsome shirts and ties so that you would match your older brother.  I loved seeing the two of you look so sharp together.  I just plain miss you.

10 comments:

LL said...

so sweet! I loved picturing you doing all these things with Ben.
Hooray for Eternal Families!!!

shirlgirl said...

Love the pictures, and my, how the children have grown into young adults over the years. Nice pictures and thanks for sharing.

The Kings said...

I used to love holding Noah all of church as well, but he is way too big for that now :( I hate that I can't just pick him up and cuddle him anymore. Now we have to just have his head sitting on our lap and do a double lift to get him up. Thinking of you lots. xxxx

Jenny said...

*oh*

XOXO

Jo Jo said...

Sweet memories!

TMI Tara said...

My heart breaks with you. Ben taught me so many life lessons -- I miss him. I can't imagine the ache you feel. I am grateful you have the knowledge that families are forever and pray it continues to ease that burden, even if just a little. Thinking of you always! xo

ANewKindOfPerfect said...

(((love)))

April said...

Oh Becky, I know that knowledge that families are forever can ease the pain, but I know the ache of missing him is so tender. Ben has touched me so deeply, and I am so thankful to you both for opening your hears to me. I love you.

Sim-Dim said...

I love it when you share things like this about Ben. It made me smile through tears thinking about those wonderful Sundays with him.

Adam and Anya said...

Keep hanging in there friend. xoxo