Sunday, January 30, 2011

8 MONTHS

For me it's not time that heals, it's the Atonement of our Savior Jesus Christ.  It didn't come as quickly as I had hoped, but it came.  7 long months I suffered with grief and anguish over the loss of my son.  For 7 months I prayed daily for peace in my soul.  My Father in Heaven knows me.  He knows my pains and my struggles.  The healing power of the Atonement has allowed me to be relieved of my anguish and grief.  
The Savior said, “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” 
That's not to say that I don't miss Ben with every fiber of my being every single day, or that I don't cry over such a great loss on a daily basis, it just means that the Savior has given me rest, and for that I am forever grateful.
"The healing power of the Lord Jesus Christ—whether it removes our burdens or strengthens us to endure and live with them—is available for every affliction in mortality."
Dallin H. Oaks

10 comments:

Jo Jo said...

I think this is a beautiful way to share that sacred experience.

Junior said...

beautiful picture, hugs

LL said...

I LOVE this post Becky!
Love you!

Diane said...

You're an inspiration Becky,

Jenny said...

Mmm.
Good stuff.
XO

The Kings said...

You are incredible Becky. I'm glad you have more peace about it now.
xxx

Anonymous said...

I am forever inspired by your walk in faith. You and your family are so amazing and I learned so much about parenting a little one with special needs and continue to learn through your blog. Because of your can do attitude, I too have taken our little one places others would have simply said "impossible". Our little one was not born into our family, but came to us as a foster kiddo and now soon to be forever daughter, so we felt we had a huge learning curve of how to immerse her into all that we do and amazingly I found your blog - truly a shining example of how life with a special child should be lived. Ben was/is such an amazing kiddo with a family that shared to those of us just learning how to be a "can do" family. Please know how important your journey has been in guiding me who is many steps behind in a similar journey. I too am so glad that we have a Heavenly Father to help us through and make us stronger. Thanks for this post.

Dannette

shirlgirl said...

I hope that I can say this eight months from now. I am trying, but it is not easy. I miss your uncle so much and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't cry about him for one reason or other. Thank you for those words.

Emily B. said...

Oh Becky, my heart is so glad for you after reading this. I love you dearly!

kimberlee said...

i'm not sure how i found you, i mean it was definitely off of ben's page. i've lurked for a while and i wanted you to know that i keep your family in our prayers. i have a son with polycystic kidney disease, and another woth hydrocephaly, dandy-walker, and cp. you are an inspiration. thank you for sharing your life. you are an inspiration!