Monday, September 28, 2009

TIME

It's wierd how time seems to STOP when you're stuck in the hospital. One minute life is normal, the next minute you find yourself in the ER with a very sick child. But really? Nothing stops. Life keeps going, people keep living and the world keeps spinning. I'm very well aware of that. For me? It's a tender mercy. It helps me to STOP and appreciate all of my many blessings that are ever present in my life. It reminds me to be grateful for the little things. It reminds me what is most important in this life. Most of all? It allows me to spend precious time with Ben that I would not otherwise have. Time that becomes shorter with every passing day. It's a sobering reality. And so with that time, I spend it loving every inch of him. I love to climb up on the bed, to lay beside Ben, and breathe him in. I love to study the little pieces and parts of his body so that someday when he is gone, they will be forever engrained into my memory. I love the sound that he makes when he breathes in and out...so rhythmically. I love the way that his body melts into mine when I lift him onto my lap. I love that he allows me to serve him in every way possible. I love the sweet reminder that IS his perfect and gentle spirit.

12 comments:

April said...

Oh that was beautiful, Becky. I know exactly what you mean by "breathing him in." His gentle spirit is just so precious! And so are you! Enjoy the snuggles!

Jane said...

It looks like I am just going to have to keep the tissues next to the computer, you just have a way of making my eyes wet when I stop by your corner of the web.

So sweet and tender that Ben of yours.

Jenny said...

I love that you share this tender part of your relationship with Ben.
Enjoy him.
xo

Cindi said...

And I thank you for reminding us what is REALLY important as we go about our busy days...not our busy-ness at all, or our schedules so much, as the people we love and serve...

Jo Jo said...

Wow, he's looking really big and long in that picture next to you. He's been doing some growing. His body needs to catch up to that huge spirit. Thanks for sharing.

Mostly Stacie's Space said...

One should not be crying at 6 in the morning. *sniff* I love you.

Rocky said...

A precious photo of two very special people. And, I agree, nothing better than cuddling on the bed with someone you love. Rocky

shirlgirl said...

A lovely post, Becky. Love the picture of the two of you--a treasure for sure.

Malinda said...

I love the picture and your words! Heaven sent Ben to the right Family!

LL said...

so so sweet!!!
looks cozy~

KeriLyn and Matthew said...

What a wonderful mom you are....i love the bond that you share with little Ben....and all of your children, for that matter....

Alana said...

Becky,
I sent the quote you have from Elder Nelson to a friend who has been having trouble for 5 years getting pregnant and when she finally did she had a miscarriage. Thanks for posting it.