Sunday, October 17, 2010

I'M PROUD OF HER....

I know pride isn't a good thing, but I can't help it today.  It was Stevie's last primary program EVER.  She did an amazing job.  She spoke a few different times, sang a duet with one of her classmates, played the piano as she accompanied the primary and congregation (had everyone in AWE!) and then ended the whole program with her testimony.  The last part was very difficult for her as she was going to be speaking about Ben.  She was really afraid that she would start crying in front of everyone.  I explained to her that it was okay to cry.  I could tell that she was really nervous as it got closer.  So could her friends as they were rubbing her back and whispering that she could do it.  Finally she walked up to the pulpit and started bearing her testimony, but she ended up cutting it short because she just felt she couldn't make it through.  I knew she was so devastated because when she sat down again, she was fighting the tears so hard but they still came.  My heart was sad for her as I know she really wanted to do it.  I'm proud of her for giving it her best.  And I know how hard it is to talk publicly about Ben.  The emotions are still so raw and painful.  I know Ben is proud of her and knew what was in her heart.  And I guess in the end, that is what matters most.

7 comments:

Tanya said...

How touching... how heartfelt. Thanks for sharing, as I was touched to read about it and wiped tears from my own eyes. We're still praying for you all, Becky! God bless your entire family!

April said...

Oh I wish she could have been there. She is one amazing girl- give her a hug for me!

Undaunted ~ My Life One Day at a Time said...

Stevie is a remarkable young lady. :) Also you need to listen/read President Uchtdorf's talk for this last confrence priesthood session. It is on pride and it is awesome. It clarifies many things, one being that is okay to be proud of children. :) Love you

LL said...

Sweet Stevie. That's impressive, she had a few major parts in the program.
She has such a big (and brave) heart!

Sarah said...

Stevie you are amazing I love you sooo much! (And I know everyone else does too!)

shirlgirl said...

I'm sure it was hard, Stevie, but you should be very proud of yourself for talking about your sweet angel brother Ben. You were a wonderful caregiver to him, and he is watching over you, too. You are an amazing young lady. Sending you lots of love, hugs, and kisses.

Jenny said...

Me too.
XO